Stuck

Today was about dark places. I watched most of "Wings of Desire." I tore open a box of tissues. You know, didn't leave the house, behaved poorly, tried to keep my mind on light, fluffy things. Played with the cats, watched music videos, heated up a can of soup, and now I'm listening to music. It feels like I've lost something special, something that I've absolutely no control over, and no matter what I did or didn't do, there's no way for it to end differently.

How do you fight what you can't see?