Tonight's one of those nights I'd like to drink a lot. I'd like to dance in the middle of a bunch of strangers. I'd like to put on a short skirt and lip sync to bad pop songs.

But I'm not that much fun. Besides, I don't even know where to do that here.

It's all this exercising. It's making me want to do things I wouldn't normally have energy for. It's that time of year, I guess. Like every year. Where I just don't want to be me for awhile. I'm just not sure who I'd rather be instead.

I guess that's why they say what they say about April. About it being cruel and all.